Cassandra Disque | April 29, 2003
I just received a bill from my allergy care center. Medicaid, who are supposed to pay all my medical expenses so long as my PCP refers me, turned down my claim from my PCP referred creation of my allergy vaccine, and my first allergy shot. I now owe my allergist $806.00. Oh, and Medicaid is [...]
Cassandra Disque | April 24, 2003
Since starting to get heavily involved with Maude, my bad habits have started to rear their ugly heads again. Getting pissed off my rocker has turned into at least a twice weekly occurence — I have never seen him go an entire evening without drinking, even at home. Every night it is a few bourbons, [...]
Cassandra Disque | April 17, 2003
Real love cannot exist between human beings. Real love is the sort of thing that exists eternally, implicitly, with no mood swings, bargaining, conditions, apologies, or rules. There is never any question that the love may end due to some unforeseen and negative circumstance. Real love is pure joy, though all encompassing sorrow may accompany [...]
Cassandra Disque | April 10, 2003
I have been turning this one over for hours in my head, though I had not realized it until five minutes ago as I was brushing my teeth, preparing to go to bed. I am absolutely exhausted. Tonight it has been a struggle simply to stay awake until midnight so that I could take my [...]
Cassandra Disque | April 9, 2003
It is spring time and once again I have the itchy feet that come free of charge with every impatient traveler. I am not road weary yet — thank heavens, seeing as I am still such a young and spritely twenty one — and I am back to struggling against the urge to give in [...]
Since 1996, my life has been a long journey of visiting one doctor after another. I look more or less fine, but I'm not. My daily pill count is like playing the dozens with a hospice patient. One doctor will say I'm doomed, and send me to another for treatment, but the treating doctor will find nothing within his or her area of practice that can be treated.
My life is better than a comedy, better than a drama. Anyone who has done this knows what I mean when I say that you have to not only know the rules, but also play the part in order to be allowed in the game. Most people find what we go through in the medical merry-go-round to be unbelievable, which is why I call it "The Drag of Gimp."
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