Cassandra Disque | November 25, 2003
After four and a half hours in the office, I am reminded as to why I was put on disability in the first place. I feel so shitty that I’m not even suicidal because part of me is convinced that my body is dying at this moment anyway, and it won’t be long until it’s [...]
Cassandra Disque | November 20, 2003
To everyone who has said “Why don’t you have a job?” To everyone who has said “You look healthy/fine to me.” To everyone who has said “Why the hell did you have to file for bankruptcy at age 20?” To everyone who has said “Get over it.” I present you with the following. Enter Evidence [...]
Cassandra Disque | November 18, 2003
I received my test results back today. My PAP smear came back normal for the first time in three years. Guess all that direct contact with sperm actually does make a difference, as that’s about the only thing that’s changed in three years. Only slightly kidding. My state health care insurance is also willing to [...]
Cassandra Disque | November 12, 2003
Oh lord, no wonder my body is falling apart on me. My knee has gone kaput three times in as many weeks, and now my other knee and both my calves are starting in. My periformis hasn’t let up, and now my back is joining in. Oh, and right now, my neck. And I wonder, [...]
Cassandra Disque | November 10, 2003
1, 2, 3 the bitch don’t work she just don’t work the bitch don’t work she just don’t work oh la la la la la la la la the bitch don’t work the bitch looks fat (the bitch don’t work) sure of that (the bitch don’t work) get off my back (the bitch don’t work) [...]
Since 1996, my life has been a long journey of visiting one doctor after another. I look more or less fine, but I'm not. My daily pill count is like playing the dozens with a hospice patient. One doctor will say I'm doomed, and send me to another for treatment, but the treating doctor will find nothing within his or her area of practice that can be treated.
My life is better than a comedy, better than a drama. Anyone who has done this knows what I mean when I say that you have to not only know the rules, but also play the part in order to be allowed in the game. Most people find what we go through in the medical merry-go-round to be unbelievable, which is why I call it "The Drag of Gimp."
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