Cassandra Disque | December 22, 2004
I don’t want to go to Australia unless it is absolutely certain that I won’t have to come back here. And it’s not certain, and won’t be until spring or summer, and if there’s anything that makes me incredibly uncomfortable, it is uncertainty. If there’s anything that makes me panic, it is not being allowed [...]
Cassandra Disque | December 21, 2004
Yesterday’s cold snap caused a pipe in my grandfather’s house to burst. The basement flooded and the plaster in the ceiling collapsed, along with one of the book shelves below. When I saw him earlier in the day, he was huddled in the sunshine that poured through the southern facing living room windows, wearing three [...]
Cassandra Disque | December 17, 2004
How do you compare and contrast such different pieces of music to decide which is a better effort than the other? Does a strict jazz solo in any way compare to a free moving composition of seemingly effortless childlike noise? Is a splendidly crafted glitch pop record in any way comparable to a gifted and [...]
Cassandra Disque | December 14, 2004
damn government, damn state healthcare, damn private health insurance, damn “pre-existing conditions,” damn gestapo pharmeceutical industries who make prescription medications so incredibly expensive, damn disease, damn doctors, damn money and the lack of it, damn laws, damn health history, just damn damn damn it all. fuck. the paradox, the absolute paradox of healthcare, welfare, all [...]
Since 1996, my life has been a long journey of visiting one doctor after another. I look more or less fine, but I'm not. My daily pill count is like playing the dozens with a hospice patient. One doctor will say I'm doomed, and send me to another for treatment, but the treating doctor will find nothing within his or her area of practice that can be treated.
My life is better than a comedy, better than a drama. Anyone who has done this knows what I mean when I say that you have to not only know the rules, but also play the part in order to be allowed in the game. Most people find what we go through in the medical merry-go-round to be unbelievable, which is why I call it "The Drag of Gimp."
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