Cassandra Disque | April 26, 2005
It’s six in the evening here. It’s five in the morning there. It’s the little things like time zones and skipping seasons that positively enthrall me. No one (that I know) shares my extreme fascination with this, which is not unusual. I’m the only person I know (other than blood relations) who doesn’t like sushi, [...]
Cassandra Disque | April 20, 2005
Had a hell of a relapse on Sunday and now I just feel fucked. The whole thing is damned ridiculous, the way it just plays itself out whenever it wants for no apparent reason. Had been feeling fine for a few days and we walked up to the Valley for a little stroll. We do [...]
Cassandra Disque | April 19, 2005
A few nights ago I was pondering why it is that so many people I know who consider themselves to be forward thinking and globally/socially conscious have purchased SUVs. In particular, quite a number of my ex’s have ended up buying, driving, and adoring their utes, much in the same way that hipsters refuse to [...]
Cassandra Disque | April 14, 2005
Dr. Maude, with his degree in psychology — though not a practicing doctor, mind you; he’s a PhD, not an MD — has gone and told me that despite having finished treatment for it years ago, that I still have (or have redeveloped) a raging case of social anxiety disorder to be the icing on [...]
Cassandra Disque | April 13, 2005
Last week I had myself an internet first. Despite having maintained web sites for about eight years now, and despite these sites all having link sections to give shout outs to other’s work that I admire online, I had never received a request to remove a link. Until now. I relaunched my modeling site and [...]
Since 1996, my life has been a long journey of visiting one doctor after another. I look more or less fine, but I'm not. My daily pill count is like playing the dozens with a hospice patient. One doctor will say I'm doomed, and send me to another for treatment, but the treating doctor will find nothing within his or her area of practice that can be treated.
My life is better than a comedy, better than a drama. Anyone who has done this knows what I mean when I say that you have to not only know the rules, but also play the part in order to be allowed in the game. Most people find what we go through in the medical merry-go-round to be unbelievable, which is why I call it "The Drag of Gimp."
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