rehabbing my gimpy ass

Cassandra Disque | January 29, 2007

PROS: + It turns out that people on Social Security disability (SSI and SSDI) get their tuition waived at the local college. Motherfucking WAIVED. I’m back in school. I only get charged for fees and books, which are more than covered by my Pell Grant. + If I ever manage to get my transcript transferred, [...]

How one nation threw away fourteen million of its citizens

Cassandra Disque | January 21, 2007

FACT: “The SSI” (Supplemental Security Income) “program is a nationwide Federal assistance program administered by the Social Security Administration (SSA) that guarantees a minimum level of income for needy aged, blind, or disabled individuals. It acts as a safety net for individuals who have little or no Social Security or other income and limited resources.” [...]

Gender, grrrar.

Cassandra Disque | January 14, 2007

Sometimes charm isn’t enough to get by on. Sometimes it takes a man, because even in 2007 it’s still a man’s world. “If she was born a man, nothing could stop her,” but I wasn’t, unfortunately, and so I end up turning to cock when I’m in my worst jams. Like school, for instance. As [...]

sometimes it’s like a hiccup

Cassandra Disque | January 9, 2007

I’m listening to The Good The Bad and The Queen, whose album may may may be out in a few weeks time, finally. Do what you want to me, but Damon still makes me swoon. Sometimes, I’m still 15. When I get upset, have a relapse, get sick, or reach catatonia, the space between my [...]

"The Drag of Gimp"

Since 1996, my life has been a long journey of visiting one doctor after another. I look more or less fine, but I'm not. My daily pill count is like playing the dozens with a hospice patient. One doctor will say I'm doomed, and send me to another for treatment, but the treating doctor will find nothing within his or her area of practice that can be treated.

My life is better than a comedy, better than a drama. Anyone who has done this knows what I mean when I say that you have to not only know the rules, but also play the part in order to be allowed in the game. Most people find what we go through in the medical merry-go-round to be unbelievable, which is why I call it "The Drag of Gimp."


About the author

Cassandra Disque

Extemporaneous flibbertigibbet with bone lumps growing out of my coccyx. I was born in 1981. I was another case of "too much, too young," or at least I wanted to be. Now I'm leaning toward "too little, too late," as my body conks out on me, and I find I haven't done hardly any of the things I wanted. This is supposed to happen to people twice my age, so you might find my perspective on life to be a little unusual -- as in, I find just about everything to be hysterically funny, because there's little use in worrying when it's all going to go kaput.