Cassandra Disque | April 28, 2009
My husband freaked out awhile back because he saw that I paid $40 for a bra, which he thinks is insane. He thinks that’s a good price for shoes, and that’s about it. I’m a 36-38D, depending on the cut. If I don’t want a very matronly bra or a piece of crap that’s going [...]
Cassandra Disque | April 25, 2009
Must remember/continue to hope that the 24/7 pins and needles in my feet are not diabetic neuropathy and are only a side effect of one of my medications.
Cassandra Disque | April 22, 2009
Classes start in a month. I’m so happy, I’m metaphorically creaming my pants. By the time the semester starts I might really be creaming my pants. The Abilify has made so much possible for me in the past month; I really feel like school is going to be possible now. The rest of my schedule [...]
Cassandra Disque | April 10, 2009
I’ve finally reached that point where I actually FEEL overwhelmed by everything that’s happened in the past few weeks and in the past year. Just in this past hour it’s hit me, leaving me feeling exhausted and physically ill. My glands are even tender and my throat is sore. I think of tears, of crying, [...]
Cassandra Disque | April 1, 2009
I’m damned tired of writing cover letters and sending off résumés into what amounts to a black hole, because no one bothers to even send a “thank you, but we’re rejecting you” letter. I realize everyone is going through this right now, but damn. Let’s all hug. It’s enough to make you feel worthless — [...]
Since 1996, my life has been a long journey of visiting one doctor after another. I look more or less fine, but I'm not. My daily pill count is like playing the dozens with a hospice patient. One doctor will say I'm doomed, and send me to another for treatment, but the treating doctor will find nothing within his or her area of practice that can be treated.
My life is better than a comedy, better than a drama. Anyone who has done this knows what I mean when I say that you have to not only know the rules, but also play the part in order to be allowed in the game. Most people find what we go through in the medical merry-go-round to be unbelievable, which is why I call it "The Drag of Gimp."
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