This is what I get for pushing too hard to be normal

Cassandra Disque | May 29, 2009

Going on day 16 of being sick, day 13 of being bedridden (minus the one day I worked, like an idiot). Doctors now have me on prednisone. Bronchitis seriously weakened my lungs and triggered my dormant asthma. My lungs now hurt constantly, as does my chest. It hurts to breathe, cough, laugh, and exert myself. [...]

to all my mental health peeps who are hurting, hang in there

Cassandra Disque | May 21, 2009

I spent the morning e-mailing with a friend of mine. Easier just to c&p it all below. Being sick this time around, instead of making me despondent the way it usually does, is really making me determined to change things in my life. The catalyst behind this, really, was trying to find someone to cover [...]

time to get off the merry-go-round

Cassandra Disque | May 21, 2009

The past twenty-four hours have been non-stop in the way of revelations, good and bad. Sometimes, something happens that just makes all the pieces come together, for whatever reason. Well, I had to go to the ER yesterday (for bronchitis, as it turns out, but I had been coughing up blood) and that ended up [...]

Consumer Happiness Index: An Experiment

Cassandra Disque | May 19, 2009

Ganked from the Tierney Lab blog: List the ten most expensive things (products, services or experiences) that you have ever paid for (including hosues, cars, university degrees, marriage ceremonies, divorce settlements and taxes). Then, list the ten items that you ahve ever bought that gave you the most happiness. Count how many items appear on [...]

The wrecking ball has landed

Cassandra Disque | May 8, 2009

Thanks to Ray in Perth, my WordPress woes are over. Turns out the category access plugins I’ve been attempting to use over the past few years don’t work so well on this server, which is why only the Hemingway themes were working. Matt had me convinced I had a massive database issue at hand; why [...]

"The Drag of Gimp"

Since 1996, my life has been a long journey of visiting one doctor after another. I look more or less fine, but I'm not. My daily pill count is like playing the dozens with a hospice patient. One doctor will say I'm doomed, and send me to another for treatment, but the treating doctor will find nothing within his or her area of practice that can be treated.

My life is better than a comedy, better than a drama. Anyone who has done this knows what I mean when I say that you have to not only know the rules, but also play the part in order to be allowed in the game. Most people find what we go through in the medical merry-go-round to be unbelievable, which is why I call it "The Drag of Gimp."


About the author

Cassandra Disque

Extemporaneous flibbertigibbet with bone lumps growing out of my coccyx. I was born in 1981. I was another case of "too much, too young," or at least I wanted to be. Now I'm leaning toward "too little, too late," as my body conks out on me, and I find I haven't done hardly any of the things I wanted. This is supposed to happen to people twice my age, so you might find my perspective on life to be a little unusual -- as in, I find just about everything to be hysterically funny, because there's little use in worrying when it's all going to go kaput.