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Cassandra Disque | June 9, 2009

In February, we had just over $8,000 in our savings. We now have just under $500. Mint.com is telling me, “In the past 30 days, you spent $444.49 on Health & Fitness. Usually you spend $196.” That doesn’t include our cash transactions for OTC medication in the first two weeks, nor does it include the [...]

can’t sleep

Cassandra Disque | June 9, 2009

my blood will kill me.

Ow, as in “fuck yeah, it burns”

Cassandra Disque | June 9, 2009

It burns when I piss now, which the doc says is from a UTI and not from kidney failure — a good sign. The cloudy urine and blood on the urethra are side effects from the strong antibiotic that I’m on. To counteract the UTI (which is apparently normal when one’s body is as fucking [...]

"The Drag of Gimp"

Since 1996, my life has been a long journey of visiting one doctor after another. I look more or less fine, but I'm not. My daily pill count is like playing the dozens with a hospice patient. One doctor will say I'm doomed, and send me to another for treatment, but the treating doctor will find nothing within his or her area of practice that can be treated.

My life is better than a comedy, better than a drama. Anyone who has done this knows what I mean when I say that you have to not only know the rules, but also play the part in order to be allowed in the game. Most people find what we go through in the medical merry-go-round to be unbelievable, which is why I call it "The Drag of Gimp."


About the author

Cassandra Disque

Extemporaneous flibbertigibbet with bone lumps growing out of my coccyx. I was born in 1981. I was another case of "too much, too young," or at least I wanted to be. Now I'm leaning toward "too little, too late," as my body conks out on me, and I find I haven't done hardly any of the things I wanted. This is supposed to happen to people twice my age, so you might find my perspective on life to be a little unusual -- as in, I find just about everything to be hysterically funny, because there's little use in worrying when it's all going to go kaput.